One of the very first questions I was asked at the liver clinic was "Do you drink alcohol?" At the time I was pregnant so the obvious answer was no. But I did admit that before I got pregnant I did have a few drinks every now and then. After Alex was born, I drank. Not every day or every weekend, but there were are few times that I had a few. My hematologist said a drink or two wouldn't affect my meds, but at clinic when they asked and I told the truth, I was advised against it. Not long after that I was listed for transplant and I have not had a drink since then. I would like to make it clear that my liver disease was not caused by a drinking problem.
I haven't had a drink in years. Most days I don't miss it, but then sometimes I crave just one drink. You know those days where everything has gone wrong, my nerves are shot and it feels like I am this close to losing my mind. Yeah, on those days I wish I could just have a drink. Just one. And of course when we go out sometimes it sucks not being able to have a few with friends. But I do it. I do it because I know that I will regret it. I do it because I hate wanting it in the first place. I do it because I'm actually crazy enough with out a few drinks in me.
I know a few people who do drink knowing that they have a liver disease. And I have nothing against that. Your body, your choice. But if alcohol wasn't so taboo for those of us with liver disease, would I have a few every now and then? Probably. There was a time that I used to drink just for the feeling. Eventually I ventured from the hard stuff to beer. And guess what, its not as nasty tasting as I thought. I have tried beers of all sorts. Epcot anyone? When I say I crave a drink, I'm don't mean in the alcoholic sense. Neither does saying that I prefer the taste of beer over a soda any day. I just enjoy the flavors.
But in the end it all means nothing. I no longer drink. I have accepted it, for the most part. A good time is still had without it. Its a known fact that drinking will affect your liver but that's not stopping many. If you were told your liver was starting to fail, would you still indulge in a few drinks? Would knowing someone who was affected by liver disease make you think twice? Because drinking in this community(liver disease) is so Taboo!