So yeah, the work thing on Wednesday went really well. I met with my manager (who is a different person to the manager I had last time I was there) and one of the two CSMs for the call centre. It was all fairly relaxed and informal. I talked about the hours I can work and they talked about how to get me back up to speed on the various things that have changed since I was last there. They seemed very prepared to accomodate my needs and happy that I’d be coming back.
I’ve noticed how different I am when dealing with people now. Gone is the edginess and the constant analysis of the situation. I’m relaxed and confident. I always thought confidence was something people were aware of in a kind of I can do this because I’m CONFIDENT! Ha! way. That was how I always experienced it. Then again, I never really lacked confidence. I was always aware I could do stuff, even when depressed, it was just the amount of effort it took. It turns out that confidence is something you’re not even aware of. It’s an absence of anxiety and fear, not bravura and courage. You just do stuff and enjoy it. It feels natural.
And of course, it’s also the preference of the habitual voyeur of what is known as parklife.
So the outcome of the meeting was that they’ll be looking into how I can do the training to update my skills and will give me a call in a couple of weeks. I should be back at work by the new year, doing 16 hours a week part-time. It’s not guaranteed that I’ll be able to increase that if I want to, but they don’t see any problems with that.
Excitingly enough, my parents also just gave me the remainder of the money from my great aunt and uncle’s estate (which paid off all my debts last year). This was £3000. I kind of hesitated for a few days, and today I’ve applied to put it into an ISA (a tax-free savings account in the UK). It’ll be joining £600 from my other savings, which fully subscribes my allowance this tax year. This means that I already have the tuition fee for the masters degree I want to do next year and anything I save from now on will go towards living expenses. To me, this is incredibly awesome.
So these things have made up for the otherwise annoying week I’ve had, which involved losing my phone (I don’t know how or where, but it definitely disappeared). Even this has its positive side. I’d had the phone for over three years and the new one looks like it’ll be really good (also, free). I do have to wait for the new sim-card to arrive before I can get it though. And it looks like the annoying cold I’ve had is finally going away. The results of my blood test are also through and I have an appointment on Thursday to discuss it. I don’t know how much discussion I’ll actually be able to do, since my wisdom tooth is being ripped out my mouth on Wednesday.
Anyway, that’s everything that’s going on with me at the moment.