Sometimes I worry when things are going too well in Bipolarville. I get concerned that the next episode may be right around the next bend.
But then my senses come back to me and I remind myself that things are going this well because I’m doing things right, that I’m managing my disorder well, doing the things that I’m supposed to be doing and avoiding the things that I’m not supposed to be doing.
I don’t take it for granted, though. Believe me, I am so blessed when things are going well in Bipolarville. I’m glad for every single day that I go without an episode, remembering back to the old days, when it seemed like I couldn’t go a day without bursting into tears over something or other, or going off on another spending spree.
It really doesn’t take much to stay stable. But one thing it does take is consistency.
Consistency is very important to bipolar stability. You need to do the things that keep you stable every day, and don’t get complacent, or you fall into danger of an episode. You can never stop being vigilant.
That’s happened to me before. I stopped watching my sleep habits – started staying up later, losing a little sleep here, a little more there, and before you knew it, I was in a full blown manic episode.
Now I am very vigilant about my sleep schedule. I go to bed at the same time every night and wake up at the same time every morning. It may seem like a small thing to you, but hey – if it keeps me out of a manic episode, I’m going to do it, and I’m going to do it every day for the rest of my life. I cherish these episode-free days too much to let anything happen to them if I can help it.
The thing about bipolar disorder is this – there are some things that you can’t control, like the chemical imbalance part of it, and the mood swings that result from that. But you can take medication for that – that part you do have control over.
But there are other things you do have control over – like your sleep schedule. So why not do what is in your own power to do if it will keep you out of a bipolar episode?