I'm here. If I said the last few months, if not this last year has been horrible, I don't know if too many people would believe me. It has been impossible to write. I stay in bed most of the day because that is all I can do. I've wanted to write and I try, but I didn't. My brain seemed broken, and even worse, when I was able to write a few words, for my blog, they seemed hollow, empty and meaningless. I didn't want to upset anyone. This blog, which has always been my baby, the thing that got me out of bed and gave me a reason to live, was withering, I just couldn't function. I'm sorry. I have a new psychiatrist. I saw him earlier this month, and he did an evaluation. My axis V is a number between 10-15. I'm barely functioning right now. Thank you for the emails and comments. I can't tell you how much they mean to me, all the times where I was falling and drowning, they saved me. I'm still here and the blog is still active, even if I am not. Best wishes for a very happy holiday, and let's hope the new year is better. A video with love from me, and from Holly. Kittens make everything better.