Recovering Alcoholic Always an Alcoholic: Like it Or Not
Posted Jun 05 2010 9:18pm
That sounds hard but it's the truth. Just because you quit drinking doesn't mean your sober for every. Your always recovering. Once a Alcoholic always an Alcoholic. I know.
Back in 2002, I tried to kill myself. I was not successful. I had been on a binge drink for 6 weeks. I mean 24 hours a day in the same chair I wake up in and same the chair I go to sleep in. I got to depressed and so tired of drinking I wanted to leave this earth for peace. I sat on the balcony of my apartment crying with a broken piece of glass just sawing at my wrist. Singing "up and down up and down and then I'm gone." I got up at some point at went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror at the sorry site of a lady who use to have everything she thought. Then her son went into the army and her five year relationship was a lie. In one night it all fell apart.
As I was looking in the mirror I saw this glow, I mean it. I was drawn to look at the glass I had in my hand and then suddenly I saw a image of my son. I do believe God was intervening with the image of my son. It was not my time.
When I got out of rehab I went to Austin thinking it was a great place to recover and get with the plan of nature. Wrong. The first thing I did when I got freedom was go and get a bottle of wind. I drank that sucker like it was water. Than one evening I went with some friends to 6th street. Oh, yea, I could drank. I hadn't drank in 7 months. I drank shots of organism and shots of tequila. At the moment, I went to walk out the club, which was so crowded. You couldn't even see a path out the door. I tried to move through the crowd and then suddenly a chair came out of nowhere and hooked my ankle that just cracked! I could feel it. Then I went off balance and fell backwards with my leg behind me (Like Joe Thiesman), breaking my tibia, fibia, & ankle.
I remember crying in the lap of the lady who had pulled out her chair and she was apologizing. yet comforting me. I just kept crying how bad hurt! The ambulance arrived and put a wrap around my neck because the girl said I hit my head real hard. I don't remember anything after that until the next morning when I awoke screaming.
My parents were there. How! I don't know. But I was screaming out of my skull. The pain was so intense. My leg had been operated on and a rod had been placed from my ankle to my knee and pins in placed along my ankle and knee.
This is the repercussions of drinking too much - Alcoholic. So If you want o have a grand time go ahead. You could die or you could be lucky like me. I could of walked across the street not paying any attention and a car hit me. I wouldn't be here today to see my grandchildren. Thank you for listening.