Postictal Resurrection?

I think I’m starting to somewhat come back to reality (what exactly is that anyway?) Well, whatever it is in terms of my definition.  Not so much phonophobia (can listen to some music at a decent volume) and photophobia (constantly adjusting my screen on baby MacBook was driving me nuts!) Postictal headache? Seems to be definitely subsiding–I don’t even think I mentioned that in my prior posts being so out of it.

*removes ball cap and hair tie for a bit more comfort*

Ahhh…comfort? I took a shower today *laughing*  I’m wearing my scrubs today too.  That always makes me happy as well (Srubs Slut…Scrubs Slut…REDRUM…REDRUM…)  Sorry, everyone.  That’s a joke from a post a while back.  I wanted to take a shower yesterday but too tired.  No sweet, pretty gal here to take wee PA into the bath and give her a nice relaxing cleanse. *giggle*

Actually, showers are kind of a “no-no” if you’re all seizure-y.  Not that I thought I was going to have another one.  However, for those that have them all over the place or maybe in clusters, think about it.  Not a good idea to take an unconscious fall in a slippery tub? Well anywhere… *rolls eyes* So, baths all the way.  Sharp knives are also not recommended, like if you’re preparing your dinner? Or even eating it?

On that front, I decided not to do any of my…erm…shaving? Just keep my hands off my razor for now? Oh, dear.  If I was still in a little bit of bad shape…just thinking about…eek! *shudder*  Let’s wipe that thought out of my mind immediately! AHHH!!! 911! Talk about “Postictal Emergency!” Try and explain that type of injury! *laughing*

Now, I haven’t blogged that much about my seizures specifically as they have been pretty much under control.  And I have never been through a Postictal phase like this! What I have noticed over the last few sleeps is that I am remembering my dreams whereas I usually do not.  In fact, this morning there was one that was very bad! It was quite upsetting! Portions of the content are not that important–let’s say the “players”–those that were in the dream, at least.  Well, to a degree? But still.

What was the most upsetting thing was that I went completely non-verbal when I needed to be–VERY badly.  I woke up with a huge howl! And then started crying.  Immediate text made to someone in a daze.  I couldn’t explain at the moment due to certain factors but will later discuss.

I’ve done some looking into Postictal dreaming and I couldn’t really find anything specific to actually remembering your dreams in a more clear fashion when you normally can not.  However, people can have dreams of their seizures? Or perhaps something resembling them?

That is not to say that what I was dreaming of resembled anything like my seizure, however.  But in a way, there is a resemblance to a tonic-clonic if I take a bit of a leap in my imagination. You lose it your abilities (to communicate?) make some kind of verbal outburst (or you can), when you seize and then like in my Postictal state immediately like after my seizure Tuesday night, I started crying.

I think that’s a stretch though as I have come out of dreams before with making some kind of sound and then sometimes crying if it has been upsetting.  But because I went non-verbal in the dream, I think I let out areally bigsound!  The largest I can EVER remember in my life and I even heard myself through my earplugs.  It was such a painful, plea for help, kind of thing!

So for anyone reading this who has seizures–and Postictal states–I would like to ask you about your dreams when Postictal.  What kind of experiences do you have or have you had?