The nasty binge eating disgusting habit has caught up with me and now I am gaining *a lot* of weight. My jeans don't fir anymore. I cannot look at myself naked in the mirror. I feel so terrible about myself that I am crying. Which is ruining my make up and I must go to campus. I don't want to leave the house. I hate myself. I hate that I hate myself. Back to the non-eating plan I suppose.
I don't want to go run. I'm too obsessed with homework and researching stuff. I am obsessed, and it's probably unhealthy. I am awfully sad. I recognize this state, I was like this before I was all wound up and manic-y all the time. Ahhh... yes... hence the concept of bipolar and cycling. Well nothing set it off... it just changed. And that makes me very discouraged. I am trying to not give up hope, and I hope this too will pass.
And I am sick with a cold or something stupid in my throat. That only adds to my lonesome-ness. Even thought every fiber of my being wants me to stay home and is freaking out at the idea of leaving the house... out I must go. So I'll get my bum out the door now.
The nasty binge eating disgusting habit has caught up with me and now I am gaining *a lot* of weight. My jeans don't fir anymore. I cannot look at myself naked in the mirror. I feel so terrible about myself that I am crying. Which is ruining my make up and I must go to campus. I don't want to leave the house. I hate myself. I hate that I hate myself. Back to the non-eating plan I suppose.
I don't want to go run. I'm too obsessed with homework and researching stuff. I am obsessed, and it's probably unhealthy. I am awfully sad. I recognize this state, I was like this before I was all wound up and manic-y all the time. Ahhh... yes... hence the concept of bipolar and cycling. Well nothing set it off... it just changed. And that makes me very discouraged. I am trying to not give up hope, and I hope this too will pass.
And I am sick with a cold or something stupid in my throat. That only adds to my lonesome-ness. Even thought every fiber of my being wants me to stay home and is freaking out at the idea of leaving the house... out I must go. So I'll get my bum out the door now.