JOURNAL: rage manic dysphoric pissed the frik off and generally don't want to be awake right now while I feel this way. part II
Posted Feb 10 2009 11:29am
border-width:0px;border-color:C8BBBE;border-style:none;"> and so now I feel like an assssshooooooollleeeeee-face bc my sister wanted to come over to "study" with me but she's bring her boyfriend too. so I don't see how that is really studying when the house IS nOt quiet when he's around o I told her I can't handle him right now he makes me angry bc I can sense he doesn't like me and then I feel bad bc now he'll be even more butt hurt with me but I don't frkn care. screw it man I'm trying to get this 4.0 shit taken care of. not to mention the million other frkn things I have to do for grad school prep and exams and I need to find a prof at the grad school to work with I need a GTA position and outofstate tuition waiver and so much shit. and the GREs x3 I have to take. I think its time for more ativan kids. and I think this is BS I am tired of having pysical ailments and mental shit and drug side effects and THEN try to do well in school its frkn hard and I'm pissed and I would like to have someone who understood that could pat me on my back or help or friends who don't get pissed or annoyed when I can't do stufdf bc I'm going bonkers and just shit I hate so much stupidity and I'd rather be mostly by myself frkfrkfrkfrkfrkfrk.
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and so now I feel like an assssshooooooollleeeeee-face bc my sister wanted to come over to "study" with me but she's bring her boyfriend too. so I don't see how that is really studying when the house IS nOt quiet when he's around o I told her I can't handle him right now he makes me angry bc I can sense he doesn't like me and then I feel bad bc now he'll be even more butt hurt with me but I don't frkn care. screw it man I'm trying to get this 4.0 shit taken care of. not to mention the million other frkn things I have to do for grad school prep and exams and I need to find a prof at the grad school to work with I need a GTA position and outofstate tuition waiver and so much shit. and the GREs x3 I have to take. I think its time for more ativan kids. and I think this is BS I am tired of having pysical ailments and mental shit and drug side effects and THEN try to do well in school its frkn hard and I'm pissed and I would like to have someone who understood that could pat me on my back or help or friends who don't get pissed or annoyed when I can't do stufdf bc I'm going bonkers and just shit I hate so much stupidity and I'd rather be mostly by myself frkfrkfrkfrkfrkfrk.