JOURNAL: Lamictal and Vivid Dreams

I need to up my Lamictal dose again... I am still titrating up to where I need to be. But I am scared to death to take another pill. Each time I up my dosage, I have the worst and most terrifying and emotionally screwing up dreams. Right now I am doing the best I can to hold it together, with stress and whatnot, school and work, finances, grad school apps, etc etc etc and the personal thing with that one person, that I really don't know how well I could handle of night of terror and such. When I've had those types of dreams in the past, they mess with my head for the next couple of days. I am using so much effort to suppress the personal saddness over a person (and I plan to deal with it in December once this semester is over because as soon as I stop to look at it I break down completely) that I fear a night spent in dreams which will most likely revolve in some manner around him with terribly screw with my head and I will be a mess tomorrow. I big emotional wreck. Which I am trying to avoid at all costs. So I do not know what I should do here. I mean I am literally terrified of more Lamictal. Yet I know I need it to be stable... gosh dang, school is really getting in the way here.