Let's see...
Regarding the headache portion of this post, I think it's a tension headache from my neck being strained from looking at a computer all day and sitting in crappy chairs. I've been trying to rub my neck and it helps for about 2 seconds and then it hurts again. Lame. So I'm going to go dig up some Excedrin... the headache medicine. Hahaha :)
Adderall... I cannot concentrate and my new way of coping with stress in daily life is to just want to sleep so I don't have to deal with anything (this is the only explanation I have for being so inexplicably tired the past few weeks as my stress and crazies have gone through the roof and sleeping is clearly an excellent way to avoid everything). So I got my hands on some and have been taking a 1/4 of it once or twice a day, and it helps me stay awake. The fact it kills my appetite is excellent too since when I am stressed I tend to self medicate by eating non-stop. Then I hate myself for gaining weight, I feel worse, I eat more... it's cyclical. And evil. Well anyhow, I have a call in to my pdoc which he isn't returning (I left a message on Thursday) asking to get a real Adderall Rx from him since I cannot concentrate worth a damn. We shall see...
Dating... well... I'm a jackass and have put a profile up on Match.com since this one thing I had been holding out for, well I threw that off of the table last week. I need a distraction. And this is a good one. The thing is, and this is hilarious, that there are SO MANY needy whiny men that if I didn't know any better I would think they actually had vaginas. Seriously. It's crazy. There are a few profiles that I am interested in because they shockingly don't sound like jackasses or morons, but nothing has materialized as of yet. We'll see how it goes. What annoys me the most (and I don't know how to say this without sounding like a stuck up jerk because I am certainly not that) is when these guys who are significantly less attractive than I am think they have a chance and bug the daylights out of me. Again, I'm not trying to be a dick here, but seriously... I am pretty, not the most beautiful thing you have ever seen but when I am at work it is not unusual for (mostly men, but some older women) to come up and tell me I am beautiful, striking, etc etc etc. I'm prettier than your average bear, and these dudes are significantly not prettier than your average bear, in fact, they are on the the other end of the spectrum. Hell I know when a dude is out of my league! I don't understand why some people think they are so wonderful. This one guy, who was significantly not attractive, emailed me, I said I did not think we were a good match and wished him luck in his search, and then he replies telling me that he thinks that if we met then I would feel differently because HE thinks we are a good match and share a lot in common. And then I replied and let this jackass know that I am not attracted to him. There have been several cases like that. The ones that crack me up the most are the dudes who will email, then 12 hours later if I haven't responded to their email (because I haven't read the damn thing) they send another one getting all bitchy and whiny about my lack of response. I'm telling you, people are frikkin weird. But one advantage of this online crap is that I can scope it out from the comfort of my own home, and communicate with these jackasses before going out with them, and then I can just meet them for coffee first. This does beat the hell out of primping myself up and going to a bar or something like that and trying to find someone there or anywhere else really. This is easy. So overall I am not complaining, I just find it sad that so many men are whiny morons with girl parts.
Regarding the headache portion of this post, I think it's a tension headache from my neck being strained from looking at a computer all day and sitting in crappy chairs. I've been trying to rub my neck and it helps for about 2 seconds and then it hurts again. Lame. So I'm going to go dig up some Excedrin... the headache medicine. Hahaha :)
Adderall... I cannot concentrate and my new way of coping with stress in daily life is to just want to sleep so I don't have to deal with anything (this is the only explanation I have for being so inexplicably tired the past few weeks as my stress and crazies have gone through the roof and sleeping is clearly an excellent way to avoid everything). So I got my hands on some and have been taking a 1/4 of it once or twice a day, and it helps me stay awake. The fact it kills my appetite is excellent too since when I am stressed I tend to self medicate by eating non-stop. Then I hate myself for gaining weight, I feel worse, I eat more... it's cyclical. And evil. Well anyhow, I have a call in to my pdoc which he isn't returning (I left a message on Thursday) asking to get a real Adderall Rx from him since I cannot concentrate worth a damn. We shall see...
Dating... well... I'm a jackass and have put a profile up on Match.com since this one thing I had been holding out for, well I threw that off of the table last week. I need a distraction. And this is a good one. The thing is, and this is hilarious, that there are SO MANY needy whiny men that if I didn't know any better I would think they actually had vaginas. Seriously. It's crazy. There are a few profiles that I am interested in because they shockingly don't sound like jackasses or morons, but nothing has materialized as of yet. We'll see how it goes. What annoys me the most (and I don't know how to say this without sounding like a stuck up jerk because I am certainly not that) is when these guys who are significantly less attractive than I am think they have a chance and bug the daylights out of me. Again, I'm not trying to be a dick here, but seriously... I am pretty, not the most beautiful thing you have ever seen but when I am at work it is not unusual for (mostly men, but some older women) to come up and tell me I am beautiful, striking, etc etc etc. I'm prettier than your average bear, and these dudes are significantly not prettier than your average bear, in fact, they are on the the other end of the spectrum. Hell I know when a dude is out of my league! I don't understand why some people think they are so wonderful. This one guy, who was significantly not attractive, emailed me, I said I did not think we were a good match and wished him luck in his search, and then he replies telling me that he thinks that if we met then I would feel differently because HE thinks we are a good match and share a lot in common. And then I replied and let this jackass know that I am not attracted to him. There have been several cases like that. The ones that crack me up the most are the dudes who will email, then 12 hours later if I haven't responded to their email (because I haven't read the damn thing) they send another one getting all bitchy and whiny about my lack of response. I'm telling you, people are frikkin weird. But one advantage of this online crap is that I can scope it out from the comfort of my own home, and communicate with these jackasses before going out with them, and then I can just meet them for coffee first. This does beat the hell out of primping myself up and going to a bar or something like that and trying to find someone there or anywhere else really. This is easy. So overall I am not complaining, I just find it sad that so many men are whiny morons with girl parts.