border-width:0px;border-color:C8BBBE;border-style:none;"> To quote a fellow Blogger, my brain is about to vibrate out of my head.
I can feel my entire body filled and vibrating with electricity. And I'm not referring to any sort of a positive feeling like this.
I can't sit still. I need to be doing something with my hands or mind or something but I can't think straight to actually "do" anything. I'm going to class right now but I haven't the faintest idea how I'm going to sit there and type notes and listen and participate and especially function in the "groups" we get into because the other females in my group are stuck up jackasses and last class they snubbed my really good clinical experimental idea because it was too involved and they didn't get it and that made me angry and want to jump up and throw my desk and go all Jerry Springer on their asses.
Laying in bed at night I keep pulling my hair as I try to fall asleep or when I wake up in the middles of the night.
I keep tearing into my "bug bites" on my legs, even at work, I go into the bathroom stall to do it. Then I smear the blood around on my calves and then when everything is pulled and and all the scabs and dead skin are removed I exit and wash my hands and go back to working. It's fun and relaxing to do.
I see this isn't the best habit. I also get that taking ativan and smoking to help kill the electricity is bad, and compounded by the coffee I drink to combat the sleepy side effects of ativan. But I don't know what else to do. I have to work and I have to do school and I have to do extra crap that will look good on my grad school apps.
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To quote a fellow Blogger, my brain is about to vibrate out of my head.
I can feel my entire body filled and vibrating with electricity. And I'm not referring to any sort of a positive feeling like this.
I can't sit still. I need to be doing something with my hands or mind or something but I can't think straight to actually "do" anything. I'm going to class right now but I haven't the faintest idea how I'm going to sit there and type notes and listen and participate and especially function in the "groups" we get into because the other females in my group are stuck up jackasses and last class they snubbed my really good clinical experimental idea because it was too involved and they didn't get it and that made me angry and want to jump up and throw my desk and go all Jerry Springer on their asses.
Laying in bed at night I keep pulling my hair as I try to fall asleep or when I wake up in the middles of the night.
I keep tearing into my "bug bites" on my legs, even at work, I go into the bathroom stall to do it. Then I smear the blood around on my calves and then when everything is pulled and and all the scabs and dead skin are removed I exit and wash my hands and go back to working. It's fun and relaxing to do.
I see this isn't the best habit. I also get that taking ativan and smoking to help kill the electricity is bad, and compounded by the coffee I drink to combat the sleepy side effects of ativan. But I don't know what else to do. I have to work and I have to do school and I have to do extra crap that will look good on my grad school apps.
So I need to tough it out.