Here’s my fantasy. Finish melting the grilled cheese I have going on the stove. Come back here to my computer and sit, for the next four hours, reading articles online, shopping online, writing e-mails. My mind is buzzing. I feel pretty happy. Not manic right now. Just happy. Though with me, “happy” could be bad.
So instead of indulging in the natural insomnia that would ensue were I to just return to this computer and sit here, I am going to shut it down. I will go take my medication after I finish this post. And then I will read a magazine while I eat my grilled cheese and go to sleep.