Well. Busy day. Sunny, warm. Very nice. Went outside and read (!)
Tried to work.
I feel dejected but am trying to suppress those feelings.
I am not feeling as physically sick today (so I could go outside) but I hope I don’t have a “relapse” tomorrow.
Something personal is bothering me but I am trying not to go into “Cognitive Distortion Land” as I have enough on my plate already. And basically Cognitive Distortions are just fucked up illusions when you’re all psycho-mental, going out of your mind, insecure, stressed out or having a “fill-in-the-blank-attack.”
I don’t want to go there with this situation.
I want to believe and trust that it is okay. It is alright and secure. That it “was the way it was.” And even if it blows sky fucking high, then I can deal with it. Because it was just like the ones that happened before and even though they blew sky high, somehow I managed.
However. This is not the time for something in my life to blow sky high on top of everything else. Hence, not wanting to even tread near lovely “Cognitive Distortion Land.” It’s like a massive thought process of “Let Sleeping Dogs Lie.” And try not to let your patience unravel in the process.
So keep busy. And not go insane in the process.
Huh…maybe that was…post wise…
…kinda not “useless?”
Sometimes, I think my entire blog is “useless.”
Good grief.
I should sleep. Or eat. Or watch “useless” television.
But no more reading. You should be impressed by how much reading that little ADD, PA did. No, really.
Laters.
Well. Busy day. Sunny, warm. Very nice. Went outside and read (!)
Tried to work.
I feel dejected but am trying to suppress those feelings.
I am not feeling as physically sick today (so I could go outside) but I hope I don’t have a “relapse” tomorrow.
Something personal is bothering me but I am trying not to go into “Cognitive Distortion Land” as I have enough on my plate already. And basically Cognitive Distortions are just fucked up illusions when you’re all psycho-mental, going out of your mind, insecure, stressed out or having a “fill-in-the-blank-attack.”
I don’t want to go there with this situation.
I want to believe and trust that it is okay. It is alright and secure. That it “was the way it was.” And even if it blows sky fucking high, then I can deal with it. Because it was just like the ones that happened before and even though they blew sky high, somehow I managed.
However. This is not the time for something in my life to blow sky high on top of everything else. Hence, not wanting to even tread near lovely “Cognitive Distortion Land.” It’s like a massive thought process of “Let Sleeping Dogs Lie.” And try not to let your patience unravel in the process.
So keep busy. And not go insane in the process.
Huh…maybe that was…post wise…
…kinda not “useless?”
Sometimes, I think my entire blog is “useless.”
Good grief.
I should sleep. Or eat. Or watch “useless” television.
But no more reading. You should be impressed by how much reading that little ADD, PA did. No, really.
Laters.