I’m surprised I’m even typing this but I have to, just to keep it in my “diary!”
I was out, pissed off (well, not really) but had to blow off some steam and also run some errands. In the “blowing off some steam department,” I really wanted to get away from all of my “life” things, “blog” things…I just wanted to write!!!
And so I did. As I usually do, with my headphones on, shutting out the world…however, what I wrote tonight took me a couple of hours at least and I still don’t know if I am happy with it.
A poem. Rhyme, rhythm and metre… Plus, this one was tough as it was also rather emotionally laden. That just made it all the worse!
Then, my goddamn, fucking, right arm just died! No, it was really weird. It felt sort of numb but beyond that. Not to the point of paralysis but certainly pretty, bloody useless! I mean, I could barely sign the bill when I left! I also brought my external mouse with baby MacBook and I had to start mousing with my left hand.
I think that last sentence says it all if you work with computers. My arm (and hand) couldn’t even manipulate a stupid mouse!
Ugh!
Anyway, toddle home, post-seizure, benzo push and maybe come back to life a bit. Then, go to bed? Stare at the ceiling and ponder how pathetic your life is (because you have more diagnoses than Epilepsy…)
*sigh*
Actually, all of that shit on television with “pushing benzos” is pretty much true. It’s more accurate if they have someone that comes in where they don’t know what the hell, what the fuck, why they’ve had a seizure, if it’s their first etc… So, they usually go with Ativan/Lorazepam as it’s a milder benzo. Well, I guess that’s the best way I can “describe” it. It’s got to do with the pharmacology.
Anyway, I’ve got some of my “arm” back now, so I guess that’s good. Still, I’m curious. A motor without “motor?”
Dr. PA always on duty.
Posted in Cranky, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Meds, Neat Neuro Stuff, Seizures
I’m surprised I’m even typing this but I have to, just to keep it in my “diary!”
I was out, pissed off (well, not really) but had to blow off some steam and also run some errands. In the “blowing off some steam department,” I really wanted to get away from all of my “life” things, “blog” things…I just wanted to write!!!
And so I did. As I usually do, with my headphones on, shutting out the world…however, what I wrote tonight took me a couple of hours at least and I still don’t know if I am happy with it.
A poem. Rhyme, rhythm and metre… Plus, this one was tough as it was also rather emotionally laden. That just made it all the worse!
Then, my goddamn, fucking, right arm just died! No, it was really weird. It felt sort of numb but beyond that. Not to the point of paralysis but certainly pretty, bloody useless! I mean, I could barely sign the bill when I left! I also brought my external mouse with baby MacBook and I had to start mousing with my left hand.
I think that last sentence says it all if you work with computers. My arm (and hand) couldn’t even manipulate a stupid mouse!
Ugh!
Anyway, toddle home, post-seizure, benzo push and maybe come back to life a bit. Then, go to bed? Stare at the ceiling and ponder how pathetic your life is (because you have more diagnoses than Epilepsy…)
*sigh*
Actually, all of that shit on television with “pushing benzos” is pretty much true. It’s more accurate if they have someone that comes in where they don’t know what the hell, what the fuck, why they’ve had a seizure, if it’s their first etc… So, they usually go with Ativan/Lorazepam as it’s a milder benzo. Well, I guess that’s the best way I can “describe” it. It’s got to do with the pharmacology.
Anyway, I’ve got some of my “arm” back now, so I guess that’s good. Still, I’m curious. A motor without “motor?”
Dr. PA always on duty.
Posted in Cranky, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Meds, Neat Neuro Stuff, Seizures