I’ve been waiting for “Someday” – But I wait no more because TODAY is my “Someday” and it’s time to get started!
I’ve ignored blogging lately. It’s not that I haven’t been thinking about blogging, but I’ve been so busy with surgery, recovery and other family and business stuff that blogging has become an ongoing, terse conversation between my writer voice and my business voice. In the background the 5 year old me dances alone the creative corner of my mind waiting for the grown up me to show up. So the conversation in my head continues as my dance of indecision becomes a whirling dervish of ideas without actions. It sort of reminds me of my dog chasing her tail; round and round she goes, never catching up, frustrated until she just gives up.
I spend a lot of time THINKING about what to post each day. Random ideas and conversations swirl in my brain, begging for my attention – still I don’t write. I busy myself with reading other peoples blogs while ignoring mine. It’s hard for me to even understand my stand offishness because I love blogging – it is one of my favorite creative outlets.
Then as if hit in the head with my Fairy Godmother’s wand (of course, I have a Fairy Godmother) – I realized!
This is why I’ve become a Life Coach – I am not the only one stuck dancing in my head.
The fact is, the reason I haven’t been dipping into my creative mojo is because it simply isn’t my priority right now. I want it to be. I’ve asked myself, “Why am I keeping all this information and these witty comments to myself?” I’m a Life Coach, these are the questions I should be posing to my clients but instead my coach is asking me what I’m afraid of.
“What if I blog out all I have to say? What will I put in my book?”
My coach, Bonnie, looks at me from across the room one eyebrow raised, “Really, you think you could blog away everything you know?”
“Of course not but…”
“Oy with the buts! Take a good look at your actions. You’re simply not doing it. You’ve made other things a priority and left out your favorite activity. Back to writing, Cinderella – it’s what you do.”
She’s right and I know it, so once AgAiN I am promising myself that I will write a pithy blog at least 3 times a week. I’ve got lots to say – especially now that I’m a Coach.
So, I respectfully request the honor of your presence as we board the bus to Bipolarland ~ pack a lunch, this could be a long ride.