There are any critics as well as supporters of the existence of bipolar disorder (BD) in children.
I watched a home video of myself when I was 8 years old; it was a shock. I watched in disbelief and kept asking my mother how she did *not* see something wrong with me. She said she took me to the doctors many times because she herself was convinced something was wrong, but they all sent her home stating I was perfectly fine.
I wasn't. I was not a "healthy" kid. Playing a pillow fight with my step-dad, I was joyful and giggling, and out of nowhere would stop and be pissed, my actions varied from throwing myself on the floor and kicking, to standing rigid and screeching. Just as quickly as I had become enraged I would be fine again and playfully playing and having a happy time. This cycle repeated itself many times throughout the one hour video.
I am shocked to see myself like that. It is so familiar thought, to how I feel in my brain today, the only difference being when I was younger I didn't have the self-control to curb my reactions. It is so sad, looking back, and seeing how I must have been feeling, so out of control and confused like that, not understanding what was up with my head... I wish I could go back in time and give that little girl a hug, telling her that I understand and things will get better.
It was eye opening to watch these videos. And also saddening.
I watched a home video of myself when I was 8 years old; it was a shock. I watched in disbelief and kept asking my mother how she did *not* see something wrong with me. She said she took me to the doctors many times because she herself was convinced something was wrong, but they all sent her home stating I was perfectly fine.
I wasn't. I was not a "healthy" kid. Playing a pillow fight with my step-dad, I was joyful and giggling, and out of nowhere would stop and be pissed, my actions varied from throwing myself on the floor and kicking, to standing rigid and screeching. Just as quickly as I had become enraged I would be fine again and playfully playing and having a happy time. This cycle repeated itself many times throughout the one hour video.
I am shocked to see myself like that. It is so familiar thought, to how I feel in my brain today, the only difference being when I was younger I didn't have the self-control to curb my reactions. It is so sad, looking back, and seeing how I must have been feeling, so out of control and confused like that, not understanding what was up with my head... I wish I could go back in time and give that little girl a hug, telling her that I understand and things will get better.
It was eye opening to watch these videos. And also saddening.
I'm not sure how I feel about this right now.