I wanted to stop what I was feeling - depressed. I didn't have any alcohol so I took my anxiety pills- Lorespam and when they took effect I poured myself a class wine. Was I subconsciously and hoping I wouldn't wake up. I didn't even drink the glass of wine - I went to sleep. I woke up this morning at 4:30am on the couch to another day. What will this day be? I feel like should go to my therapist.
I'm so tired of having Bipolar - one day your depressed or suicidal and the next your just fine and can go and rule the world. I'm so tired of that. I've been doing this for 45 years. A lot of pain goes with those years. Will it ever end. Will the pills ever work?