Well, things are going along. Mom’s been discharged from the hospital and is recuperating from her bipolar episode at home. She seems to be getting better, albeit slowly. Of course I wish it would happen more quickly, but that’s just because of my own impatience. Compared to 6 weeks ago, she’s doing fantastic! No more trips to unreality, and she’s pretty much sticking to the present when she talks. So that’s definitely progress.
I’ve come to the conclusion that with bipolar disorder , as with most things in life, it’s “all things happen in their time.” You can’t rush things, and they won’t necessarily happen when you want them to – they’ll just happen whenever they happen. You just do the best you can with what you’ve got.
Like dealing with having bipolar disorder. There are certain things you have to do to maintain your stability and not have episodes. Like taking your medication, for example. So you do those things on a daily basis, and you assume that by doing that, you’ll be able to avoid those episodes and maintain your stability.
But all things do happen in their time. I remember when I thought I would never experience love again. I had been married for 13 years to an emotionally abusive husband. The divorce was very messy, with hurt feelings all around. I swore off men and relationships forever. But two years later, I met my (now) husband. We were best friends for another two years before we ever got into a relationship, because I was so scared of making another mistake. Besides, he had bipolar disorder like me, and I just wasn’t sure how that would work out.
But all things in their time… Here we are having just celebrated our six year wedding anniversary, and we’re very happy, with both of us very stable with our bipolar disorder.
So recovery IS possible. If you’re struggling with that concept, I would encourage you – never give up hope for it. Remember: All things in their time.