I’ve been meaning to get back into writing this blog for some time now, but I’ve been finding excuses not to. But now I’m starting again, back at square one. And a fair amount has happened since the last time that I posted.
The rundown is that I’ve been climbing a slow and steady pace out of depression. But what comes with depression is a bunch of bad habits. Bad eating habits, television watching habits, lack of will to do things, massive amounts of smoking (nearly half a pack a day of american spirit blacks, my lungs are killing me). And even though I’m no longer depressed, I have the habits of one. But that’s starting to come to an end.
I’ve been doing things nearly every day and am making it a habit to walk at least two miles every day. The weather here in wisconsin has been beautiful (apart from some very chilly days) and I’ve tried to make the most of it. I’m also eating more fruits and trying to cut back on calories since I’ve grown a little pudgy from the zyprexa and lithium. I’ve also started to kick my smoking habit (2 days and not a single one). And now, I’m starting to blog again.
Included in all of this is a lot of deep soul searching. This last year has done a number on me and being depressed really brought it back to where I was a year ago, only more so. I kept thinking that I was over the worst of it, only to find something else to stand in my way. Over time, that really drove a deep sense of defeatism into me and in starting to shake it, I’ve had to introspect a lot more than I normally would. A process that is still ongoing.
I’d like to really get into the soul searching stuff, but I’m going to pace myself and give myself a project to do tomorrow. But, in the mean time, it’s good to be back and hopefully regularly posting again. I don’t have any excuses not to.
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Student of philosophy and mathematics at UW Madison diagnosed with Bipolar 1. I'm particularly interested in philosophy of science as of this moment as well as the intersection of academic life and mental illness.
I’ve been meaning to get back into writing this blog for some time now, but I’ve been finding excuses not to. But now I’m starting again, back at square one. And a fair amount has happened since the last time that I posted.
The rundown is that I’ve been climbing a slow and steady pace out of depression. But what comes with depression is a bunch of bad habits. Bad eating habits, television watching habits, lack of will to do things, massive amounts of smoking (nearly half a pack a day of american spirit blacks, my lungs are killing me). And even though I’m no longer depressed, I have the habits of one. But that’s starting to come to an end.
I’ve been doing things nearly every day and am making it a habit to walk at least two miles every day. The weather here in wisconsin has been beautiful (apart from some very chilly days) and I’ve tried to make the most of it. I’m also eating more fruits and trying to cut back on calories since I’ve grown a little pudgy from the zyprexa and lithium. I’ve also started to kick my smoking habit (2 days and not a single one). And now, I’m starting to blog again.
Included in all of this is a lot of deep soul searching. This last year has done a number on me and being depressed really brought it back to where I was a year ago, only more so. I kept thinking that I was over the worst of it, only to find something else to stand in my way. Over time, that really drove a deep sense of defeatism into me and in starting to shake it, I’ve had to introspect a lot more than I normally would. A process that is still ongoing.
I’d like to really get into the soul searching stuff, but I’m going to pace myself and give myself a project to do tomorrow. But, in the mean time, it’s good to be back and hopefully regularly posting again. I don’t have any excuses not to.
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