Do you remember when you were a kid and you could play without reservations? When you still recognized your own sound and the rhythm of your body? And without a second thought you would make a joyful noise every day. That is exactly what I did during lunch today.
I have a friend named Annalies, she is one of the most amazing women I have ever had the pleasure to meet. She and her man, Gregory are the owners of Conduit, Center for Creative Change ( http://www.conduitforchange.com/conduitforchange.com/Welcome.html ) They have classes to help people discover their creative potential in the art of play, music and movement. I am on her mailing list and though I have always had an interest in joining one of her groups I suck at doing new things. I am prone to opt in and then talk myself out of attending. This is a bad habit that I am working hard to change ~ but change is difficult for me and my bipolar brain.
To help myself along, I emailed Annalies and told her that I was hoping to make her class (how very non-committal of me). She wrote back and genuinely seemed excited that I might show up ~ way to hit my ego in the sweet spot. So I was determined to not skip out on her or me. And I did it. I got up, took a shower, dressed and headed out. I was even the first one there. Annalies greeted me with a big hug and introduced me to Greg. They are such a wise and creative couple that it’s hard to not be hypnotized by their sheer joy and positive energy. They began the class with an ice breaker which had each of us turning to our neighbor and greeting them as a long lost friend. We went around the room and hugged and chatted as if we’d known each other for years. This was an excellent way to put everyone at ease. Next we did a sort of egg toss which resulted in copious amounts of laughter. We then got up to move, listening to music but also to our own rhythm. We were each provided a drum and all joined in a drumming circle ~ something I’ve always wanted to do but was worried that I would not do it well so I just didn’t do it. Silly girl, doing it well is not the point. There were other activities that continued to open my heart and mind. I was so happy that I didn’t talk myself out of going. I went and I loved it.
Annalies and Gregory are on an amazing path helping others find their way. Their ideas flow through the room as they encourage others to chime in. I felt warm and accepted from the beginning of the class. This type of gathering is perfect for everyone but especially so for those of us with bipolar disorder. It’s important for our brain to take a break from the constant chatter or the lonely silence. It feels wonderful to let go and not worry about what others are thinking ~ because they are struggling to let go as well ~ so there is no judgment.
Be sure to check out Conduit’s website there is lots of interesting information. And remember to “Dance like no one is watching!” Remember how to listen to your body’s rhythm and make a joyful noise (it doesn’t have to be perfect ~ I said noise, afterall!) This is good medicine for the soul.