Nothing is working today. My kid seems to have forgotten half the stuff I taught him in his reading lessons over the last few months. Then there are the extra special diets and kidney stones.
Of course there is autism.
Something is wrong with me. I am disorganised and I can't seem to finish anything I start. I wish my mom was here, or a sister, or someone who didn't want a lot in exchange. If only I could catch some sleep. Everything hurts today, from head down to what's the deal with my back and leg, seriously? Maybe carrying the baby around and no stretching or exercise.
There is no time.
If I don't do something about this Quran course I will definitely be dropped from the course. They must think I am always making excuses. Wish I hadn't wasted all those years doing useless things.
If only I had a full time nanny. It would be nice to go have lunch outside with friends like normal people. It would be nice to do normal stuff. It would be so much easier to do normal people things. Like inviting someone over and not have their kids scared and confused.
If someone just washed all the dishes, made dinner and watched my daughter for two hours I could get a lot more done. She loves being around me, I don't want to leave her with a baby sitter outside the home. She loves her home and being around us.
It looks cold outside. It might rain. Baby has a cold. There are still several hours to bedtime. I don't want my kids in front of a screen.
Here are some lolly pops. They are organic, less guilt.
Everything is fine and as it should be. Alhamdulillah.