I have really neglected my blogging this past month....lots of stuff going on around here. I have given up on the daily "Age of Anger" blog that I would read every morning to rile me up....same old, same old... I think pretty soon, their redundancy will play out and people will move on... I mean, you can only sell so many books...right??
This past month, Deirdre turned 16 years old and took a trip with her choir class. She acclimates well to travel and all the anxieties that come with the travel; ie, restaurants they stop at, bedding issues, too many girls in the bathroom, etc.
Caitlin brought home her cap and gown today...yes, I welled up...I am so proud of her!!
I took a tour of the GO PROJECT !! that Caitlin will be attending until she is 22 years old. My Mom went with me and it was amazing. The young adults were happy and enjoyed what they were doing. They were surrounded by people who love them and I am so happy Caitlin has been accepted into their program.
Yes, I realized after touring the program that my daughter is severely disabled...but, I could not be more proud of her.
You see...I do not look at my children's life as ending when they received the Autism diagnosis... I look at this as a different avenue that we have to take. Their autism really doesn't have anything to do with me...other than the fact that it has made me a better person...and most important...a better mother.!!
At the tender age of 49, I was hired by a company that I worked for in my early 20's. I was blessed that they decided to hire me again. In the last 7 months, I have gotten 3 promotions. I love my job. I love working full-time. I am blessed to be able to make my own schedule. I am blessed that my children have adapted to my routine and they have made me so very proud. I am blessed that I have a husband who said, "Good for you, try it, and if it doesn't work out, quit".....
I am most glad that several years ago, I discovered many people who had the same thoughts I did about Autism.... I scoured blogs and websites hoping to find people who did not despair and cry about Autism, but instead...chose a different viewpoint. I have found some really cool people who have some of the same ideas and beliefs I do. We do not always agree, but, we seem to keep it civil.
I could then release the anger that I was holding onto.. which, in turn, made my children so much happier !!
I have been the mother of children with autism for over 19 years. I have learned so much from my oldest child down to my youngest. The rules of Autism have changed in the last 19 years also. Due mostly to the fact that too many people have their hands in the pot...and some of them should not be in there at all. My heart aches for the children whose parent's feel they must neglect their other children, or blame the Autistic child for them not spending enough time with their other children. I do not grieve the loss of my children....they are standing right in front of me and I choose to bask in their glory.... I do not feel cheated or defeated...but,
I feel honored and blessed to be able to be in their presence and that God has chosen me to carry that honor of being their Mother !!!!