I’ve heard people with chronic health issues say things like “I hate my disease, but given the chance, I don’t know if I’d get rid of it”. So, OK, I get where you’re coming from. I know that hardships help you grow, and make you appreciate life so much more. And I know that living with something like that for a long time can start to define you and become a part of your personality. Yes, yes and yes.
My take on the hypothetical “if you could take it all away…” situation is that my asthma is not the end of the world and I certainly can cope but if my fairy godmother came along, I would say YES! I’m thinking of all the possibilities here. I could get a good night’s sleep every night, I could wake up and feel like an actual human being in the mornings, I could dance and run without having an excuse not to, I wouldn’t have to take (and pay for) so many meds, I could go anywhere without having to run the list of potential triggers through my head. And most of all, there would be none of this life-threatening asthma episode stuff, no more scaring myself and everyone around me. Doesn’t all that seem like a good enough reason?
Of course, I can also appreciate the parts of having asthma that have been good for me. Number 1 is that if I hadn’t known what it’s like, I would never have learned to appreciate being able to run like the wind. Now, when I’m healthy, I’m extra-happy, and my smile shows it. I try to remember everything else about my health that is good, like having full mobility, no muscle or joint pain, no stomach issues, no headaches or neuro problems. Hey, I’m a healthy girl.
The other thing that’s been good, and which I really do appreciate is that I have a pretty good angle on what it’s like to be a patient and that will help me very much in my career. I’ve met a lot of doctors and I know which ones are able to communicate effectively and compassionately and I’m starting to model myself after these people.
So yes, every cloud has a silver lining! But I could still really do without the asthma attacks.
My 2 cents for the day, a little peek into my crazy brain. I’m away for the weekend, have a good one!