01 March 2008TFP: not the worst thing that could happen, but close
Posted Mar 01 2008 12:00am
Time seems to stop when I loved one gets ill. And if you’re planning a wedding and your fiance gets sick, well, it can make you reevaluate some things.
Tim was rushed to the hospital yesterday morning in some serious pain. He’s doing much better now, thank you, but he’s still in the ICU, last I checked.
I don’t think I’ve ever been more terrified in my life as I was yesterday, and, honestly, that’s saying something. I won’t say the “d” word, but its horrible spectyr certainly hung over me yesterday, plagued the back of my mind.
But what I don’t understand is people’s reaction to me staying with him, to me adjusting so I can commute from Chapel Hill (where he is) or Raleigh (where his parents are) to Kinston until this is over. They keep saying I’m “brave” or “strong” for standing by him. Now, I appreciate the compliments, and I know they’re well meant.
But what kind of person wouldn’t stand by the man she loves, the one she has agreed to, you know, marry? I’m three-and-a-half months to pledging to spend the rest of my life with him, but I’m going to run when he gets sick? I don’t think so.
So, wedding planning has been put in stasis for the moment, though the wedding should go on as planned. I’ll just be glad when I can see him without a visitor’s badge and for more than 30 minutes at a time.