Everyday without fail, i take my medication at 1.30. Always have! yeh i know i am probably being over cautious but its just the way I am. My phone has an alarm to remind me of the time so i will never possibly forget. So, I'm running around like crazy making food when i realised it was time to take my tablet. Got the packet of pills out, noticed there was only one pill in the packet, took it, and got on with my cooking. My alarm went a few minutes later 'ok i can put that off since i have taken my tablet'. Everyone fed, lots of happy customers, i mean family. 'Thanks for coming and goodbye'
Phew, feet up and relax. Clearing away the mess i noticed the packet of pills winking at me on the table, And yes, there was ONE tablet still in it. OK, i either miscounted the first time OR i haven't taken it at all.
Now usually that thought would send me into total panic. Having never missed one id be worried about what to expect. The rational Lynn would say 'nothing is going to happen. You've missed one pill! No big drama here. You've been on them for that long that you'll still have plenty in your system. You'd need to miss them for days before you'd feel a thing'. The worrier in me was a bit more concerned with what to do now. My medication specifically says on the leaflet that should you miss one, then just leave it. Don't take anything and just continue at the correct time on the day you remember. So i was surprisingly very calm and very rational. I decided i would just carry on with my day and id take them at 1.30 on the Monday.
About an hour later i felt really weird. Dizzy. Disconnected, Anxious. Well that's all i needed to feel to be honest. It was all i needed to send my brain into overdrive! And so i panicked. and i panicked. and i panicked. For the first time in about 4 years i needed to call my mum for help. I needed her to come and get Nathan while i got myself back into a state of calm. Luckily although the panic was awful, i was completely handling it. I knew it was rising and falling. I knew i was going to be OK, and i just had to ride it out. Now i know people might say it was all in my head, or that i brought it on myself with over thinking, but i stick to the fact that i DID NOT FEEL RIGHT. Even the anxiety was different. very bizarre. I ended up calling an emergency number for advice. Eventually i got to speak to a doctor who told me that missing one pill couldn't have caused those symptoms. He told me i could take a tablet now, or even just half a one, then take my normal dose tomorrow. I took a half straight away, and whether it was psychological or not, it worked. I felt myself relax and the rest of the night was normal. BUT the reason i mention it is the following day i began my period and I'm definitely noticing my anxiety changing at this time of the month. I always have done, but its MORE noticeable than ever. I'm keeping a close eye on it now anyway and if it happens again then ill definitely be mentioning it to my doctor.... i still don't know if i missed a tablet or not lol .
The jewellery business if going quite well. Word is spreading and Ive had enough sales to keep me going and keep me pursuing it. Especially with Christmas coming i could use the extra pocket money. Id be grateful to anyone who could 'like' us on facebook or just spread the word. It was very difficult at first to find a balance between seeing to Nathan and starting the business online but now that Cherish is up and running its not been so hard.
Sometimes i write a blog and get a sense of achievement, that Ive written a good piece... well I'm not getting that tonight. It seems a bit messy and rushed, but i was aware of the weeks and weeks since my last post so i really just wanted to get something published asap. I have been super busy with the things Ive mentioned, plus weve both had flu and a horrible winter vomitting bug and now of course the lead up to Nathans birthday and Christmas, but its slowly coming together. I hope you guys are all good and well. I will try and not leave such a long gap between posts next time and ill be back before Christmas to tell you about a job, a psychic and a new man! Byeee x