I've decided... that short posts are allowed.
This is a sudden change to me. I suspect that I have subconsciously made an obligation to write something long and meaningful in each post, and this has contributed to my being so unproductive with the blog. I recently realized that you don't have to make long posts, so long as you actually post
something. As of today, Quantity replaces Quality (which will join us at a later stage).
My girlfriend's been to visit again, and once again I've had the best days of my life. This was the first time I cried after watching her leave. The day of her moving in with me in my village* is a shining beacon of light in the vast, turbulent panorama of my near future.
I'm getting better is what's happening. I'm slowly easing into my new albeit temporary job, doing new tasks and getting better at the old ones. I'm still getting lots of exposure to anxiety, and I'm happy about the positive changes it's provoking. Exposure is my only way out of clammy hands of social anxiety.
I can literally feel how my outlook on life is improving and above all expanding. It's like a door slowly opening to let the light in. And the light is beautiful. I can't wait to crank the whole thing open and let the light of confidence and opportunity bathe me in beautiful sunshine. We all deserve to have a place in the light. Mine will be a late arrival, but then I will certainly not take it for granted.
-Mr. (light) Blue
*For those who haven't guessed it, "village" doesn't really mean village. What it does mean, however, is quite irrelevant for the time being. The important thing is that my girlfriend is as real as you and me.
Currently listening to:Peter Gabriel - Peter GabrielCurrently reading:The Far Side of the World by Patrick O'Brian
This is a sudden change to me. I suspect that I have subconsciously made an obligation to write something long and meaningful in each post, and this has contributed to my being so unproductive with the blog. I recently realized that you don't have to make long posts, so long as you actually post something. As of today, Quantity replaces Quality (which will join us at a later stage).
My girlfriend's been to visit again, and once again I've had the best days of my life. This was the first time I cried after watching her leave. The day of her moving in with me in my village* is a shining beacon of light in the vast, turbulent panorama of my near future.
I can literally feel how my outlook on life is improving and above all expanding. It's like a door slowly opening to let the light in. And the light is beautiful. I can't wait to crank the whole thing open and let the light of confidence and opportunity bathe me in beautiful sunshine. We all deserve to have a place in the light. Mine will be a late arrival, but then I will certainly not take it for granted.
-Mr. (light) Blue
*For those who haven't guessed it, "village" doesn't really mean village. What it does mean, however, is quite irrelevant for the time being. The important thing is that my girlfriend is as real as you and me.
Currently listening to:Peter Gabriel - Peter Gabriel
Currently reading:The Far Side of the World by Patrick O'Brian