I went out and bought that clock. Fair enough it did ring and wake me up. I got out of bed and sleepily switched it off, and snoozed in for two hours more. However, it was still much earlier than I am used to, and I actually saw some daylight today, and had cleaned my car before lunch.
Dad is on good form tonight which is great, and was even cleaning up that office of his. Wonders never cease. Perhaps my persistent nagging is paying off? He's spent quite a few hours fixing my broken iron for me this afternoon, and making himself pleasantly useful.
I'm trying so hard to keep busy and cheerful. I got out into the fresh air and planted a few hundred daffodil bulbs around my mum's garden. It's been a fine autumnal day so I made the most of it. As it's set to continue tomorrow I made a tentative phone call to someone I've been promising to introduce myself to. They wanted some advice on how to tackle their own horticultural issues, so I seized the moment with the dry weather. It's out of my comfort zone regarding driving, and I've been avoiding it. Today I decided to stop dithering and pick up the phone and arrange a convenient time. We've never met before, as the acquaintance has been through a local online forum, although the correspondence has been going on for a couple of years. I'm very nervous about making the journey, and how I will be feeling, but it's high time I made the effort. I've even put some gardening tools in the boot of my car in readiness. I'm determined to go now.
I also received mail from another friend this evening, who again I have never actually spoken to, asking if she could meet me at the central library. I have said yes, making this quite an eventful and testing week to come.
How lovely to receive that letter, just at the right moment. If anything is needed right now it's a like minded girlfriend. She has even been through the same situation in the past, and come out at the other end a happy, loved, free and confident individual. It's amazing just how many people have experienced these episodes at some point in their lives, and it truly gives me hope that things can, and will change if you want them to.
I went out and bought that clock. Fair enough it did ring and wake me up. I got out of bed and sleepily switched it off, and snoozed in for two hours more. However, it was still much earlier than I am used to, and I actually saw some daylight today, and had cleaned my car before lunch.
Dad is on good form tonight which is great, and was even cleaning up that office of his. Wonders never cease. Perhaps my persistent nagging is paying off? He's spent quite a few hours fixing my broken iron for me this afternoon, and making himself pleasantly useful.
I'm trying so hard to keep busy and cheerful. I got out into the fresh air and planted a few hundred daffodil bulbs around my mum's garden. It's been a fine autumnal day so I made the most of it. As it's set to continue tomorrow I made a tentative phone call to someone I've been promising to introduce myself to. They wanted some advice on how to tackle their own horticultural issues, so I seized the moment with the dry weather. It's out of my comfort zone regarding driving, and I've been avoiding it. Today I decided to stop dithering and pick up the phone and arrange a convenient time. We've never met before, as the acquaintance has been through a local online forum, although the correspondence has been going on for a couple of years. I'm very nervous about making the journey, and how I will be feeling, but it's high time I made the effort. I've even put some gardening tools in the boot of my car in readiness. I'm determined to go now.
I also received mail from another friend this evening, who again I have never actually spoken to, asking if she could meet me at the central library. I have said yes, making this quite an eventful and testing week to come.
How lovely to receive that letter, just at the right moment. If anything is needed right now it's a like minded girlfriend. She has even been through the same situation in the past, and come out at the other end a happy, loved, free and confident individual. It's amazing just how many people have experienced these episodes at some point in their lives, and it truly gives me hope that things can, and will change if you want them to.