Unfortunately, Renell, it does sound like you may be depressed to some degree, perhaps with some anxiety though that needs further information.
However, it is possible that your feelings are being produced by wholly medical factors.
Your best option is to consult a physician for a checkup and to discuss what is happening in your life. Depression and anxiety disorders often don't just remit of their own accord. However, both are treatable conditions, especially in their early stages, that respond to medications and/or psychotherapy. Your doctor will be able to guide you on the best treatment for you.
Best wishes
Ian
Posted by Renell
anxiety or depression I don't know.
I also have problems communicating even in situation were I really want to.