I have been using valium for about 8 years. I find that it helps relax me, but I am in a situation that is not good. The 10mg dose does not do for me what it once did. In order to deal with that, I find that I take 2 tabs [ total=20mg ] on a given day and then skip days. However, the real problem now is that I have needed the 20mg almost every day [ several issues are causing me anxiety ] and I run short of pills. For example, now I have been without valium for a few days and feel like I am going to jump out of my skin. It is only 9 am in the moring and I have my mind on getting to the pharmacy tomorrow and getting my script filled. But, worse than that, I want to get home at the end of the day and drink to take off the edge.
I know I need to get things under control. I do check in with a therapist, but I think it is jsut to make sure I am ok to his eye. He has told me that I should get into psychotherapy and given me to names, but my schedule is busy and my wife is 'pick yourself up by the bootstraps' type.
I do like to exercise and wonder if I get off the valium, if I will feel like doing even more if it? I have read about tapering down. I am very fearful that I can't live without this drug. I also feel like I have some form of attention deficit, but that could come from the drug. I take Wellbutrin also.
This is not a well put together message, but I hope someone has a bit of advice based on a similar experience.