Its been ages since i last posted due to an illness but i'm getting back into blogging again. Heres an update on whats been going on. Its been a pretty horrible 3 months and im feeling quite dejected at the moment but trying to stay positive.For the past 3 months i've been suffering from Gastritis and had quite a few problems caused by it. I've been in and out of hospital and have lost 2 1/2 stone in weight in the past 3 months, so now im 6 1/2 stone and feeling very weak.I've just come out of hospital after spending another week in there. I had so many tests but they all came back normal so the doctors suggested all the problems i've been having and the gastritis could have been caused by my anxiety and stress and referred me to the psychiactric team.So this morning i had a psychiatrist come to see me at home, although to be honest it was a complete waste of time, he was only here for 10 minutes and just told me he didnt think i should go on any more medication (im currently on 30mg Citalopram). He didnt even ask about my anxiety.For the next week or so i'll be having someone, its actually the guy i used to have CBT with, come round my house for daily visits. I dont know how effective this will be or what it will do to help but i'm willing to give it a try.As far as my anxiety goes, it hasnt really changed in the last 3 months for better or worse. Im still suffering with anxiety about pretty much everything but i made a HUGE step forward and personal achievement with the Police Volunteer Job. I am very proud of myself for going to this and getting through the interview so well. This would have been impossible for me a year ago.Im currently awaiting an email from the volunteer co-ordinator to confirm all the vetting information is OK and we'll go from there.There is a snag though. To get my Police ID i have to go to a town about 45 minutes away (thats where the police HQ is). Thats way out of my comfort zone, i've never been there so its totally unfamiliar and the thought of having to go there scares the hell out of me. I cant though, let this ruin my chance at doing this so i guess i'm just going to have to face it.I'm trying to keep my spirits up but, even though there are things to look forward too, i cant help help but worry about everything and im still suffering stomach problems which are getting me down but hopefully it will clear up soon.
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For the past 3 months i've been suffering from Gastritis and had quite a few problems caused by it. I've been in and out of hospital and have lost 2 1/2 stone in weight in the past 3 months, so now im 6 1/2 stone and feeling very weak.
I've just come out of hospital after spending another week in there. I had so many tests but they all came back normal so the doctors suggested all the problems i've been having and the gastritis could have been caused by my anxiety and stress and referred me to the psychiactric team.
So this morning i had a psychiatrist come to see me at home, although to be honest it was a complete waste of time, he was only here for 10 minutes and just told me he didnt think i should go on any more medication (im currently on 30mg Citalopram). He didnt even ask about my anxiety.
For the next week or so i'll be having someone, its actually the guy i used to have CBT with, come round my house for daily visits. I dont know how effective this will be or what it will do to help but i'm willing to give it a try.
As far as my anxiety goes, it hasnt really changed in the last 3 months for better or worse. Im still suffering with anxiety about pretty much everything but i made a HUGE step forward and personal achievement with the Police Volunteer Job. I am very proud of myself for going to this and getting through the interview so well. This would have been impossible for me a year ago.
Im currently awaiting an email from the volunteer co-ordinator to confirm all the vetting information is OK and we'll go from there.
There is a snag though. To get my Police ID i have to go to a town about 45 minutes away (thats where the police HQ is). Thats way out of my comfort zone, i've never been there so its totally unfamiliar and the thought of having to go there scares the hell out of me. I cant though, let this ruin my chance at doing this so i guess i'm just going to have to face it.
I'm trying to keep my spirits up but, even though there are things to look forward too, i cant help help but worry about everything and im still suffering stomach problems which are getting me down but hopefully it will clear up soon.