Shortly after Tyler was first diagnosed with his peanut allergy in 2006, I started having terrible nightmares about his allergy. I had an unfair advantage, however. I was pregnant so the nightmares were really vamped with hormones.
One nightmare I will never forget back then was our family at a baseball game. For some reason, Tyler was sitting with someone else. I could see him and noticed the person he was sitting next to was handing him a peanut. Before I could get to him, he popped it in his mouth. I woke up in a cold sweat.
Other nightmares came and went over the next two and a half years but they started back up in their intensity after his June 30 reaction. I had a few but the one that sticks out in my mind the most was about a month ago. For some reason my husband (who is very aware of Tyler's allergy and is super careful) gave him a tree nut in my dream. We still don't know if he is allergic to tree nuts (long story on that one) but we avoid them like the plague. In the dream, he started to react and I, of course, grabbed the Epi and jabbed it in him.
The problem with this dream (other than being very scary)? When I awoke, I was over my husband jabbing him in the side! Once I became aware that it was only a nightmare, I was so relieved and tried explaining what was going on. My husband, who is normally a wonderful man unless you wake him from a deep sleep by jabbing him in the side, was oddly enough not extremely understanding at that moment.
During my support group meeting on Monday, one mother shared how she had a nightmare where both of her tree nut allergic daughters were having a reaction and she only had one EpiPen! How terrible!
Have you had a nightmare you would like to share? Post a comment (or send me an e-mail if you don't want everyone to see). This could be a fun discussion!!