I am a 29 year old mother/wife who admitted yesterday to my husband that I am an alcoholic. This isn't to say that he didn't already know that I am an alcoholic. I have hid my drinking for most of our relationship, and after I had my daughter I began drinking again, hiding empty wine bottles in cabinets and piles of clothes. After getting caught 3 times in the past 10 months, I am broken. And my husband's trust in me is broken.
My husband supports and loves me, but I know that he is hurt and afraid. I have my first session with a therapist (PhD) who specializes in addiction on Tuesday. But, what is next? There is a sense of relief, exhaustion and emptiness now that I have admitted my addiction after 9 years of hiding it. A sense of guilt and shame.