Just a brain dump today, which is day zero.
Woke up at 5:00 am to go to the gym, felt fine at first. Nausea started thirty minutes later. Still picked up the bags and an energy bar and headed out. Thought that I would do weights, but the cardio warm up felt so good I decided to do interval training on the elliptical. The good feeling lasted until 10:30, when the nausea returned. Took tylenol, celebrex and applied lidocaine patches which have a numbing effect within the local area, but no mind altering pain receptor garbage to deal with. I arranged for time off next week, in case the symptoms last beyond Sunday.
The mind is swirling, and there is the overwhelming question of what to do when the pain comes once I stop. But, is this logical brain or the pleasure seeking addiction talking? I rationalize that dealing with the physical pain of quitting is the same as dealing with the emotional pain when sobering up, or quitting the other crap. There is not much to separate the physical from the psychological.
I'll begin NA meetings on day 1
Does anyone see a problem here (picked these up yesterday for my appoint on 7/8)?
:-)
Woke up at 5:00 am to go to the gym, felt fine at first. Nausea started thirty minutes later. Still picked up the bags and an energy bar and headed out. Thought that I would do weights, but the cardio warm up felt so good I decided to do interval training on the elliptical. The good feeling lasted until 10:30, when the nausea returned. Took tylenol, celebrex and applied lidocaine patches which have a numbing effect within the local area, but no mind altering pain receptor garbage to deal with. I arranged for time off next week, in case the symptoms last beyond Sunday.
The mind is swirling, and there is the overwhelming question of what to do when the pain comes once I stop. But, is this logical brain or the pleasure seeking addiction talking? I rationalize that dealing with the physical pain of quitting is the same as dealing with the emotional pain when sobering up, or quitting the other crap. There is not much to separate the physical from the psychological.
I'll begin NA meetings on day 1
Does anyone see a problem here (picked these up yesterday for my appoint on 7/8)?
:-)