My home group is celebrating its tenth year anniversary in the morning. I've been a member for the past five years. For the first three and a half years I attended this open meeting as an Alanon and CoDA member. For the past eighteen months I have stayed sober and free of mind altering chemicals.
A month or so ago I had a day of retreat at my priests out of town home. Late in the day we celebrated Eucharist with pieces of home made bread and a chalice. I have been dipping my wafer at church but with a soft piece of bread, opted to take a swallow. On other occasions at someone's home it has been filled with juice so I didn't give it much thought. Anyway, I took a generous gulp of wine.
Hmm, I thought on the ride home, maybe I can switch back to that. I had stopped drinking from the chalice the previous year when I realized it was triggering the phenomena of craving. That was when cautious drinking began resembling controlled drinking.
I still dip my wafer instead of sipping from the chalice. But that incident lead to a couple different thoughts and some nosiness into my sons drinking. Ahh, the disease baffling and all powerful. And patient.
But I am also patient. That's what's good about today.