sometimes start writing these posts and I just wonder what is going through my own head. I think because of the horrific downfall that I went through because of my divorce and my fight to continue to stay sober I have developed this sense of noticing the little signs of when I am moving farther and farther forward.
I went shopping for my rations the other day at the store and needed to get some shampoo. I have to tell you that going shopping with me is an adventure. I shop at Wal-Mart and shopping at Wal-Mart in the south is the funniest thing ever. You all have seen the pictures of the wonderful clientele that shop at Wal-Mart so you already have the image in your head. I usually go through most of the isles just because you never know what kind of person you’re going to see and the things that might be coming out of their mouths.
Once I got to the shampoo isle I went back to my old routine from before the divorce. I did this without noticing that I was doing it but after I finished I was very happy with myself. I like to smell just about every bottles of shampoo. I don’t like to buy the same shampoo twice because I get tired of the smell so I take my sweet time smelling everyone of them until I find the smell I’m going to stick with for as long as that bottle will last. When I got done and was walking out of the store I realized I had gotten back one more part of me. I have gotten back my sense of shampoo shopping and it is a good thing.
The little things that I notice coming back in me make me feel so much better are great signs of good things to come. It really is the little things in life that go a long way for me. Today in my life I no longer need another person to help make me happy. Today I get happiness from the things I do and the way I feel about my life.
We sometimes forget to look for small signs of positive things that are happening in our lives. We are always reaching for the big things to happen and we overlook everyday good things that happen all around us. We have to enjoy the silly moments that shows us we are simply enjoying life to the fullest.