Tonight I met with my other sponsee to go over the directions for the fear inventory in Step 4. I already wrote about how the fear prayer there is my favorite in the whole book, and it was great reading it with my sponsee and sharing it with her. That whole section in the book is fantastic talking about how fear is this pervasive and corrosive force throughout my life. I remember the first time I made the connection between fear and resentment- how I would much rather be angry than scared. Anger is this powerful force and fear is weak. I've always hated anything even resembling weakness in myself. I'd rather scare you with my anger than show you how scared and vulnerable and "weak" I really am. That has been another stubborn old idea that I've slowly been willing to let go. Hearing my sponsee made the same connection between her own fear and resentment was pretty awesome. She beat me to the punchline : )
Tonight I met with my other sponsee to go over the directions for the fear inventory in Step 4. I already wrote about how the fear prayer there is my favorite in the whole book, and it was great reading it with my sponsee and sharing it with her. That whole section in the book is fantastic talking about how fear is this pervasive and corrosive force throughout my life. I remember the first time I made the connection between fear and resentment- how I would much rather be angry than scared. Anger is this powerful force and fear is weak. I've always hated anything even resembling weakness in myself. I'd rather scare you with my anger than show you how scared and vulnerable and "weak" I really am. That has been another stubborn old idea that I've slowly been willing to let go. Hearing my sponsee made the same connection between her own fear and resentment was pretty awesome. She beat me to the punchline : )