Since this is a program of rigorous honesty, I want to say that my daily meditation practice has been almost non-existent for the last month or two. Of all the suggestions in our beautiful program, meditation and daily inventory are the two I have the most difficulty practicing. Usually I go awhile writing everyday and then it becomes more intermittent. Then I go with a meditation run for awhile, then that becomes more intermittent.
It's so strange that these two practices that totally transform my day and my perspective are two of the first things to go when my schedule gets more full. I will be praying for willingness and guidance. This feels a lot like trying to self-will my spiritual practices, which of course never works. I'm ready for a different experience.