Last night Mike came home from work...........I was sitting on the couch relaxing from a long day-before I met with a bride to be about The Body Shop makeup....when he drops a ball on me....a friend of ours is Pregnant. I didn't cry-but I didn't smile either. He just looked at me and questioned why I didn't show much emotion. I just told him I didn't really want to hear that-they've only been trying for 3 months-after they were told 3 years ago she could never have kids....14 months later there son was born.......and now-number 2 is on his/her way. Why? Yes-they were trying-so yes I am very happy for her-and I don't want to sound selfish.....a BABY!! HOW EXCITING!!! But then why am I so hurt and upset about it. I saw her today and I congratulated her on her big news....inside-I was crying. Mike didn't really know how to react when I told him I didn't know what to say about it. He doesn't understand what it's like to not give him a baby. I know it takes 2 but I think a girl sometimes feels more responsible for it. When you are living in the body that is supposed to grow this child, and nurture it......you want it so much! To not have it............tears me apart.
I'm so happy for all of the expectant mothers.........I just wish I was one to.