Coming back to work was hard. I decided it was better to go back to work on Wednesday than spend an entire week on the couch sleeping and crying. At least work can be distracting, somewhat. And in other ways, it makes things more difficult.
For example, I think I’ve been hugged 15 times so far. People are looking at me with the pity eyes. They say they’re so sorry for me. I understand they’re trying to be nice, but it hurts to think about it.
The hardest times are in the mornings, before I’ve taken my medicines. I get incredibly sad in the mornings on my drive into work. Nights are also hard too and I toss and turn and remember things.
Only 1 more week until Christmas break, then I get two weeks off.
DH and I have a meeting Monday afternoon with our first adoption agency. We are returning to the agency that did our homestudy. They do international and domestic adoption. We’re still leaning on domestic although we are curious about international. They are a small agency and I feel like we would have our portfolio shown more to birthmothers than if we went to a larger agency.
Speaking of large agencies, I stopped into the large and prestigious agency to get their info packet and the receptionist handed me a folder along with a 2 hour DVD. The DVD was $25, but I told the lady I would just “bring it back” so she waived my fee on good faith. I mean seriously……..$25?!?! That is insane! DH and I just watched the DVD last night and it was basically the lawyers talking about everything we already knew and ended with happy adoptive parents holding baby with happy birthmom. Oh yeah – and part of the DVD showed the lawyer driving his own private plane and he stated that he would “go anywhere” to make your dream of adoption possible.
GAG!!!
Suffice to say that I don’t think we’re going with the big agency. They just didn’t seem right for us.
Literally.
Coming back to work was hard. I decided it was better to go back to work on Wednesday than spend an entire week on the couch sleeping and crying. At least work can be distracting, somewhat. And in other ways, it makes things more difficult.
For example, I think I’ve been hugged 15 times so far. People are looking at me with the pity eyes. They say they’re so sorry for me. I understand they’re trying to be nice, but it hurts to think about it.
The hardest times are in the mornings, before I’ve taken my medicines. I get incredibly sad in the mornings on my drive into work. Nights are also hard too and I toss and turn and remember things.
Only 1 more week until Christmas break, then I get two weeks off.
DH and I have a meeting Monday afternoon with our first adoption agency. We are returning to the agency that did our homestudy. They do international and domestic adoption. We’re still leaning on domestic although we are curious about international. They are a small agency and I feel like we would have our portfolio shown more to birthmothers than if we went to a larger agency.
Speaking of large agencies, I stopped into the large and prestigious agency to get their info packet and the receptionist handed me a folder along with a 2 hour DVD. The DVD was $25, but I told the lady I would just “bring it back” so she waived my fee on good faith. I mean seriously……..$25?!?! That is insane! DH and I just watched the DVD last night and it was basically the lawyers talking about everything we already knew and ended with happy adoptive parents holding baby with happy birthmom. Oh yeah – and part of the DVD showed the lawyer driving his own private plane and he stated that he would “go anywhere” to make your dream of adoption possible.
GAG!!!
Suffice to say that I don’t think we’re going with the big agency. They just didn’t seem right for us.